You might be wondering why I don’t just post my guts from this blog here on this blog. I mean, it’s not like I am two different people.
I’m not two different people. I am me. I am not perfect, though something long ingrained in me thinks I have to be, but to what standard, to what degree? And my perfection looks different from the next guys’. Anyway, I don’t think in having my other blog that I am not being true to who I am. The other blog is about my battle with my self-image and my skewered relationship with food.
And it’s my journey home. Back home to God, plain and simple, without the complications.
This blog started as a journal about Noah’s hospital life. It has served as a place for grief debriefing. It’s been a fun place for me to tell Emily stories and do some “show and tell”. For some reason in my heart, I can’t join the two blogs right now, but I am looking forward to the day I can be done with that blog and not have to “go there” anymore.