A lot has transpired over the last 5 years…



Roller coaster emotions.









Dying to self.

Doors closed.

New beginnings.

Bitter memories.

Sweet memories.

Eyes opened.

Hope renewed.

Trust still firm.

Faith still boundless.

And a whole lot of love.

In a million years I never imagined that so much life would transpire in just 5 years. When I was in 8th grade I was concerned about 8th grade things: bad hair days, junk food and dumb boys. Five years later while I was a freshman in college I was concerned with freshman things: bad hair days, junk food and dumb boys. 🙂 By five years after I was a freshman in college, I was married, had a job, had moved across the country, was paying bills, making new life long friends, traveling around the world with my husband and sharing God’s love with people…my life, perspective and purpose had changed significantly.

In a million years I never would have imagined that five years after giving birth to a baby boy who quite literally melted every part of my heart, that on his big boy 5th birthday he wouldn’t be in attendance to his very own celebration.

I cannot believe I actually got to have him in my life for 7 whole months! A lot of mommies and daddies don’t have that much time with their kids. I am so very grateful that I was able to enjoy those 7 months with Noah. Looking back, and even while I was in the midst of it, I don’t care where that time was spent…all I am thankful for is the fact that I had a son. His name was Noah. He would have been 5 today. And I am richer for knowing him.

Mama loves you bigger than the universe, sweet guy of mine. Always and forever.


10 Responses

  1. no way! five years? noah steven stole all of our hearts w/ that beautiful face and beautiful life story. may the angels kiss his cheeks and hold him closely today!

  2. Happy Birthday Sweet Beautiful Boy! I have a very hard time accepting the fact that five years have gone by. Even though my baby boy is five years old now! I am so happy to see how sweet life has turned out five years later, and I am sure Noah is so happy for you. I still remember sitting there in my basement in Delaware, crying my eyeballs out reading about Noah and his story, and just connecting to it, to you, to your family. What a long strange trip it’s been.

  3. Thanks, ladies! Thanks for walking this with me all these years…thanks for praying for Noah and for us…and thanks for letting me peek in on your beautiful lives! Love you guys!

    Ade xoxox

  4. Thanks for sharing with us! I have followed your story for five years now. Your faith is amazing. I have learned a lot from you. Thank you for being an open book!

  5. Happy 5th Birthday, Noah! You stole hearts far and wide and I am so thankful for you. Praying for lots of Angel kisses for you today and every day sweet boy!

  6. Wow, that means it has been almost 5 years since I stumbled upon your blog, my first baby loss blog. I never knew I would draw upon so much I saw here when my own baby went to be with Jesus 2 1/2 years ago… Thanks for sharing Noah with us. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. What a beautiful sweet little pumpkin!

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