Surely this will be a short visit at the hospital…

And so the story goes…tomorrow is June 10th. It will always be June 10th a year from today for the rest of time until Christ’s return. Until then, there will never not be a June 10th. On January 12th, Noah’s eternal birthday, June 10th did not disappear. Until we are in God’s glory forever, watches, clocks and calendars will always mark the time and date. I’m glad that June 10th didn’t cease to exist the day Noah died. I obviously never thought it would or could. It’s important to remember. I remember by the minute, but usually every second of every day. I miss this beautiful boy who opened my eyes to eternity and God’s glory. I live in this surreal reality that my sweet son is no longer physically in my life. It sucks. It is sad. I have a deep profound sadness in the core of my being, an enormously empty spot in my heart, and at the same time this immeasurable peace and joy for having known him and knowing where he is at this moment. The day Noah was born was one of the happiest days of my life, as was the day Em was born. Automatically loving selflessly in the instant your child is born is a miracle in itself. It’s unfathomable since selfishness is so natural to me, and all of mankind…

Noah, I know you want me there more than I want you here, and I will live in that pursuit with all of my heart and all of my soul and all of my mind because God is the One I seek, but as your mommy, I’m not going to lie to you…I miss you, plain and simple, I miss you. I know in heaven there is no measure of time, but here on earth, one year ago, tomorrow is the day you entered our hearts and changed our perspective…I love you forever…how could I not?

Proud daddy

The only picture of Noah on Emily’s birthday, July 11th. His nap was during the party…



24 Responses

  1. Longing for heaven with you…thank you for walking this journey so honestly! Feeling the sadness as well as the joy right along side you. I love you and know in my heart there are some amazing First Birthday celebrations in heaven this week. Can’t you just see them playing together even now…..

  2. Sweet sweet post. I’m remembering with you.

    It’s interesting that June 10th is the same birthday as my nephew who left this earth six years ago on May 31. He was 12 years old.

  3. Adrienne, Jason and Emily:
    Happy Birthday to Noah! He (as well as you all) have been such an inspiration to so many who have been following your story, including myself.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers today as you celebrate Noah’s life both here and in Heaven. I am confident Noah is going to celebrate right along with you.
    In His Name,

  4. Happy birthday, Sweet Angel. You touched the lives of so many here on earth. I know my life has been changed for the better…forever because of your sweet story.
    I’m sending prayers everyday for your family as they deal with life without your precious face.

  5. Adrienne,

    I was looking at the pictures of Noah when my 8 year old son came up behind me. “Who’s that baby?” he asked. I told him his name is Noah. My son then said, “He looks different.” Curious, I asked what he meant. He replied, “It’s like he’s all lit up inside.”

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you all this weekend. Happy birthday, Noah. Your light even shines through pictures!

  6. My goodness what gorgeous kiddos you have….Thanks so much for sharing all of these beautiful pictures of Noah and Emily. We will be thinking and praying for you and the family tomorrow as we do everynight. Happy Birthday Noah, we love and miss you sweet baby boy!

  7. I have been praying for you ALL week! Sister, in Christ, my heart is breaking for you.
    I will celebrate your beautiful son’s birthday with you, from afar…. South Carolina.

    Love, hugs and prayers in Jesus’ name

  8. Thanks for sharing all of those beautiful pictures, Adrienne. I will be praying for a special peace for your family tomorrow. Erika

  9. Happy birthday Noah…I’ve been counting the days. We will celebrate your life!!! Always with Love.

    Mary Geeslin

  10. This past Tuesday would have been my daddy’s 56th birthday…he died 18 days after he turned 50 years old. He has two young grandsons in South Dakota who miss him very much. Maybe Noah has hooked up with my dad (you know, with their South Dakota connection and all!) and are smiling down on us from heaven!

    Thanks, Adrienne, for sharing these wonderful pictures. I’m crying right now, but also rejoicing with you in knowing Noah is safe in the arms of Jesus.

    Happy Birthday, Angel Noah!

    ~Audrey in Arvada

  11. Happy birthday sweet Noah!
    I am praying that your family has peace today. I have been thinking and praying for your family so much this week. The pictures are absolutely beautiful. He is such a special boy.
    We had to come down from Steamboat to Denver because the altitude was too much for Grace.

  12. Happy 1st Birthday Noah!

    Adrienne my heart breaks for you. I pray that you and Jason have a wonderfully peaceful day, I only wish we could be there to celebrate Noah’s life with you guys.

    God Bless,

  13. Happy Birthday Noah! What a precious boy you are and so special with so many people who love and care about you so much and miss you everyday, but especially today! I hope you are smiling down on your mommy, daddy, and sister today and celebrating with them! May God’s peace be in all of your hearts today and everyday!

  14. Happy Birthday sweet Noah!

    I’m so sad that you aren’t able to spend this day with your family here on Earth, but I’m so happy that you did get to spend some time here and leave so much of yourself with them.

    Adrienne, thank you so much for sharing your dear one with all of us. My heart breaks for you today–I’ve thought of you often and prayed for you and your family.

    What beautiful pictures you shared!

  15. Happy Birthday, Noah. My goodness, how this little boy and your memories of him have made me cry! He is an amazingly beautiful baby. Adrienne, you and your family are in my prayers.

  16. Happy Birthday Noah! Thank you Adrienne for sharing with us those lovely pictures of your dear Noah and the rest of the family. And thank you too for your thoughts on gluttony…what a crazy wild dream! Incredible that it was so tied into the definition you found in the dictionary. May God give you guys strength and peace as you miss your baby. Lots of love and prayers…

  17. This most recent post has been so touching. I really don’t have words to express. Please know that you & your family have been in my thoughts and prayers this entire week-end.

    I don’t post a comment often, but I do check in on your site….every day, several times a day.

    You are inspiring.

    Jackie Carl
    Marion, IN

  18. Thank you for sharing all of those beautiful photos of Noah, Emily, You and Jason. I really love the photo of Noah snoozing away in his Car Seat.

    Happy Birthday Noah. You have accomplished more in your short life them most who live to be 100. And you live on.

    My heart is with you Adrienne. Thank you for sharing so much.


  19. Happy Birthday Noah! Can you imagine the party he is having in heaven? I know it doesn’t make it any easier because you want him in your arms and my heart aches for you Adrienne. Please know that we love you guys and can’t wait to see you again. On another note, have you sold your house yet? I keep praying that it will sell soon for you!

  20. I had this whole comment typed and it disappeared. I just want to say that you are one amazing person. It is yesterdays post that made me have to leave a comment–it was so incredible, as are all of yours. I am so touched by your heart and your sharing! I will continue to pray for you and your family. God has special plans for you, of that I am sure!


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