Yes, that is all of the picture that I will post of me in my junior prom dress and Em’s fairy wings and crown. Full length photo unavailable. Em actually wanted me to wear my wedding gown to her little friend Zoe’s fairy princess birthday tea party, but that is where I drew the line! Why do I still have that hideous dress you ask? Oh, because I thought one day I’d have a little girl who would want to dress up in my fru fru dresses. I was right… Actually, Em tried on my poofy 1993 heavy silk, did I say “Poofy” wedding dress one day while we were packing up our old house. She said, “Mommy, this is the most beautiful dress! Can I wear it when I get married?!” I said, out loud, “Yes, sweetie, of course you can wear it!” I said, in my head, “Seriously, kid, you don’t know what you are asking! You are NOT going to want to wear this in 20 years when you get married, and just so you know, I won’t be offended!” There are just some eras that were cool, and some that weren’t.
Here’s another thing she said that had me rolling. We were spending the night at a friend’s house who had double bunks in their guest room. She said she wanted to sleep up top, so she started the night there but called daddy after about an hour and hopped in the middle of us. The next morning I said, “Em, what’s up with you jumping in with us last night? I thought you wanted to sleep in the top bunk.” She looks at me quite seriously and says, “Mom. Heights. I’m not a mountain goat!”
Finally, the other day we were driving around town and had this conversation:
Me: Em, what would you think about having another brother or sister some day?
Em: I think that would be great! I’d love that, Mom!
Me: Would you want one from my belly or to adopt one?
Em: Either would be fine with me…(silence)…Although I’ve never had an adopted one so maybe we could try that this time.
Me: Me neither. I’m open to whatever God has in mind for our family.
Em: Yeah, because either way, we’re going to love that kid.
Me: Yep, either way.
People have asked, and to make it quite clear, I have absolutely no emptiness that I feel I need to fill because Noah isn’t here with me physically. There are days that I’d be up for another kid and there are days when I just want to hang with Em. There are days when I feel overwhelmed with the reality that there are orphans ALL OVER THE WORLD and want to adopt them all and there are days when I think about physically bringing another child into the world. I’m obviously no where ready to make any decisions, so meanwhile, I’m simply loving the one I’ve got…