So, I got an email from someone asking me a few questions about priorities, balance and the quality and quantity time I spend with Emily. As I pondered it, I realize that as I look back on my time as a blogger, most of the times that I have been “absent, distant, or neglectful” of this blog, I have been “mindful, playful, engaged and interacting” with my real live kid…and personally, when all is said and done, even though this blog will be a keepsake for her to look back on, I PRAY that her memories of us laughing from hours of tickling, playing in the dirt, snuggling, reading books, creating artistic things and going on adventures will be the true treasures she carries in her heart…not that I kept up on a blog. Sure I’d like her to remember that her mom made yummy, healthy meals and treats, kept a fairly clean house and showered regularly, but if that is ALL she remembers, I will have failed as a mama…I want her to be confident that I did my best, that I loved her to the fullest, that I made mistakes but they weren’t fatal, and that I lived life one day at a time with joy in my heart, striving to give God the glory with every imperfection that I have.
…Just some thoughts running through my head today…
I know you didn’t ask, but just so you know…I think you are an amazing mom. Em is going to have such great memories and has such a wonderful example as she becomes a woman and a mommy herself.
I have rarely seen a mom so involved, invested and in love with her kid.
And to top that off, we will all remember and be thankful that you shower regularly 🙂
You are a wonderful mother and friend to your precious daughter. She will remember all your snuggle time just as I think my girls will remember that with me first xxxxxxx
Sometimes I can get caught up in feeling guilty that I’m not better at preserving memories in scrapbooks or journals or whatever, but I always come back to the realization that I would rather spend my time LIVING life with my children than documenting it. 🙂
I have so much respect for you and also appreciate very much what you wrote about being a mom first! I’m right with you – blogging and facebook and everything else has to come second. Your little Em is so blessed to have you. I can only imagine the loads of fun that you two have together.
Also, I think it’s so cool that you’re opening your home to the missionary couple. I’m sure it will be a blessing both ways, for them and for you.
I’m thinking of you and praying for you,
beautifully said and for whatever it is worth….I think you are a great mom and you are an inspiration to me.