I’m angry…Jason thinks I should take a kick-boxing class…personally, a sledge hammer class would be more up my alley. And, because satan is incapable of reading my mind, I need to get this off my chest, because he needs a good reminding…
Me: “I hate your stinking guts, satan! I abhor you! I think you suck and everything you represent sucks! I know all about you…you are the father of lies, the great deceiver and your whole goal in existence is to wreak havoc on God’s beautiful creation, on the heart of mankind because you are so pissed that you got the boot out of God’s presence! Greed gets you nowhere! Well, just because misery loves company doesn’t mean we’re all buying into your lies! I hate your freaking guts, hopefully as much as God hates you! Why the hell you wanted to mess with my family, I’ll know in full because God’s Word says I will, but like Job, you don’t win when it comes to us! You’re an ass! You know what God’s Word, the true Word, the Word that gives life says about you?! It exposes you and your schemes, and since I read God’s Word, I don’t buy into your tactics in my life or the lives of anyone around me! God gives His people His word so that you’re exposed…Revelation 12:17 says, “Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to make war against the rest of her offspring-those who obey God’s commandments and hold to the testimony of Jesus.” You’re a freaking #@$##@%$%^%&^#&^#%!
God’s word exposes you as a cunning snake, a roaring lion prowling around looking for who to destroy. It says you are liar and a thief, trying to steal away the Word planted in us. You masquerade as an angel of light, which you have to do because you are counterfeit! You are the opposite of Christ who is the Light of the World! I know you are ticked because Christ defeated you under His feet by His blood that was shed on the cross and you are mad every time a humans eyes are opened to the grace and goodness of God because it means that the chains of deception no longer bind them! (breath…)
Me: “I serve the omnipotent, omniscient, loving God of the Universe, Creator of all that is seen and unseen! I love Him with all of my heart and I hate you with all of my guts! I serve Him and Him only and I will live every day that God gives me on this earth to spread the truth of His love with whomever I meet. And guess what, you freaking jerk?! Even if my days end tomorrow (which, FYI, in case you forgot, God numbers our days, not you!), death has no sting! I know the Truth and He has set me free! You messed with the wrong girl, devil! I know you hate being reminded of where you stand, which is defeated for eternity because of Christ, the Son of God, but sometimes you just need an earful…not enough people know you are an ass. They blame God for everything under the sun instead of hating you for what you do and praising God for Who He is. (*Remember Revelation 12:17…) It was obviously the worst thing in all existence when your pride got you cast from God’s presence! How miserable you have been since that day! I don’t feel sorry for you, though, because you are a big fat jerk who has been trying to deceive man, created in God’s image, God’s very delight, since the moment God made us and blessed us in the Garden. Well, in case you think you are gaining ground, you aren’t! Christ is coming for His Bride, the Church, and we are getting our hearts together! You can’t lie to us to buy into the deception of division, bickering, strife, gossip and comparison. I repent to God for all of those things and I’m not the only one! If you really think I’ve bought into the lie that life is all about here and this is as good as it gets, let me remind you…living on earth out of the physical presence of God is as close to hell as I ever want to be. This isn’t as good as it gets, this is a detour, no thanks to you, and once your head is bashed in for eternity, I get to live in the City of God forever. I get to behold the Creator of the Universe, Yhwh, and live in His radiance. It’s going to be TOTALLY AWESOME! I get to see Noah again, and he is whole! His name means, “Nothing Missing, Nothing Broken”, so he is whole and healed and he has seen in full why he was only here a short time…You think you can destroy families, namely mine by already trying to snatch two of my 3 children, but you are so deceived, NOT ME! I know all about your plan to try to lead the whole world astray…”Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Christ. For the accuser of our brothers, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down.” Revelation 12:10 And since I know you know God’s word because you quoted it back to Jesus when you were attempting to lead Him astray, I’ll remind you that Revelation 12:11 & 12 and the rest of the chapter says, “They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. Therefore rejoice, you heavens and you who dwell in them! But woe to the earth and the sea, because the devil has gone down to you! He is filled with fury, because he knows that his time is short.”
Since you aren’t infinite and all-knowing, I just wanted to make sure it was perfectly clear how very much I hate your stinking guts and how very much I love the God who created me! I love Him bigger than the Universe, more than the grains of sand and more than every star in the eternal galaxies. To Him be the Glory, now and forever! There’s not a chance I’ll zip my lip!”
Puking on satan feels good…
Recently I’ve been asked if I ever have hard days because I am so strong. If I didn’t have bad days, I’d be denying the way God created me. Yes, my heart and mind are set on things above, but I live here right now and so I bawl, I miss Noah, I look at his pictures everyday. I think it stinks that a year ago began this crazy journey, but since I know God’s Word and what it says about the devil, I also know that curling up in a ball of depression for the rest of my life would be pointless and exactly what the devil would want…No. Verse 11 says it all…”They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.”
Death hurts. I’ll admit that right along with you. But thankfully it is not the end.
One day. One day we will know fully. I live everyday to that end. In the meantime…I praise God- along with you and your family- even for the trials. For they make my heart beat faster for that day. When we will know full well.
Still thinking and praying you through this time. Thank God Noah is healed and has danced with the angels and rejoiced around God’s throne. He is one lucky little boy…who awaits a grand reunion someday.
I cannot even imagine how your heart suffers at any given moment for your beautiful baby boy Noah. I am so very hurt for you that he’s not here with you everyday. The way that you have handled your loss though is beyond me. Everything you said about satan, I too feel! I am still praying for you,Jason and Em every single day Adrienne. I just wanted you to know that. Your family is so loved by all of us here and countless people all over the world. You have blogged your way right into my heart forever. The pictures and beautiful words will never ever be forgotten.I have learned so much from you and just pray that I can be as close to God as you when the devil tries to enter into my family.
Paula and Family
Amen & RIGHT ON!!!!!
Thanks for this, Ade! I have been having the same thoughts lately, I’m just going to add a huge DITTO! to satan on your words as they pertain to me and my family, as well. The spiritual battle can be draining at times, and I’m glad I’m not the only one who gets really angry at satan for all that he tries to destory. My marriage has been high on his list for some time, but God is protecting us!!! He has been after my oldest son, who’s only 5, as well. ARGH! That makes me mad. Mess with me, that’s one thing. My husband? That’s another. But my child? Crossing the line there, and I get really ticked off.
How awesome that the devil has already been defeated, can’t do any single thing that the Lord doesn’t allow him to do, and I’m with you…I can’t wait until he is crushed forever and we are with the Lord Jesus in Heaven for Eternity!!!!
To HIM, the Sovereign Lord of the Universe, Jesus Christ, be the glory forever and ever and ever!!!
This is just what I was feeling last night and great to read this morning. I HATE that slimy creature.
I was awake last night from 1:00 am to 3:00 am and spent most of the time bawling my eyes out. How is it possible to feel so many emotions all at the same time?
When I finally picked up my bible, I read Psalms 141-149 and my pain was sweetly, if temporarily, relieved.
If I wasn’t pregnant, I’d suggest we take that sledgehammer class together!
Hear, hear! Wow…I feel like *I* just unloaded on that creep and it feels good!
Again, thank you for sharing this side of the spectrum of grief with us. Praying for you still…
“puking on the devil feels good”….wow, we should all take time to puke on the devil every now and then.
Why should we “puke” on our husbands, kids, strangers on the road, etc when there is the enemy to unload on?!
PERSPECTIVE. There is a battle going on that we so easily loose focus of. God, give us eyes to see that which is ongoing in the spiritual world, so that we can keep our hearts and minds focused on things above.
Just this morning I rebuked the devil away from my family. He has been trying to destroy my marriage and I refuse to let that happen. Thank you for saying how we all feel. I will not allow Satan to destroy what God has made! Praying for you and your family!
All I can say is Amen and preach it sister!!! Good for you Ade! I am lifting you and your whole family up in my prayers!
Amen! We need to be reminded to take a stand against the creator of all lies.
We have never met, but I have been reading your blog for a while. And I have to say, while I love and relate to so much of what you write, this has to be one of my favorites! Awesome!
And I am sure that others have told you this, but you are a really talented writer – do you have any plans to write on a professional level?
God bless you and your sweet family!
Adrienne, I’m praying for you today!
Here is a site that I found helpful when my wife died last year.
I pray for you and Jason every day.
I still think you are so so so strong for being so forthright and so open and so honest about the rollercoaster you have been on for a year now. You have so much strength and so much love surrounding you. I hope you can feel it on days like this. We smile with you, we cry with you, we pray with you. I hope our virtual hugs are reaching you and comforting you. Bless you for your honesty and your faith.
I love this one.
People used to tell me that it’s not okay to “hate”… anybody or anything… and that bothered me. I never understood that. They’d say, God wants us to love. And I used to feel challenged by that – because I hated the devil a lot… and then I realized that that’s okay! God says to love our enemies — He doesn’t say to love THE enemy!
Love and acceptance CAN change hearts in people — but there is NO hope for the devil – love is wasted on him…
So hate away! and leave the love for those people on earth that he has tricked and deceived!
I love this post & love u and your passionate heart.
AMEN and again AMEN!!!!!!!!
I don’t have any “advice” or even words of wisdom…all I can say is, GOD is FAITHFUL and GOOD and I am incredibly blessed every time I read your blog. You are using your life as a gift to the LORD and His LOVE for you is EVERLASTING. THe only encouragement I have is we are on earth for such a short time…we’ll spend eternity with Him…and all the saints. Richest blessings to you and your family. I pray you receive his peace for you today…that your cup would be overflowing!!!
Amen Adrienne!!! It does, indeed, feel good to puke on satan… goodness knows he deserves an eternity of it! And, true to God’s Word, he’s gonna get it.
Amen! Very inspirational. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Stuff like this makes me amazingly glad that there are strong women, sold out to God, in this world! Thanks.
You are so right-people get angry at the wrong person. It’s the devil not The Holy Spirit that gets them in a bunch. If only they would get mad at the right one…
Oh Adrienne you are so right … we need to remember who it is trying to harm us at every corner … it’s not our Lord, it is the devil.
Thank you for the reminder that we need to thank and praise Him for all we have, every single day, not just when we “need” something, and resist the crap that the devil likes to lay down in front of us.
Even if sometimes we think that crap the devil is selling is pretty …
Good day or bad day, our Lord deserves our thanks and praise.
Love your blog – I think you have great insight so I hope you’ll address something at some point that I’ve always struggled to understand. How do you know when it’s Satan attacking you or your family and not just something that’s part of God’s plan?
That was sooooo awesome, Ade!! I love to be reminded of how much Satan bites and that it’s okay to say that. We need to keep rebuking him like you are doing so that he really stinks and that he will never win his silly game no matter how hard he tries. That’s all of the time he deserves from me so I’ll just say Praise God for saving us and choosing us to join Him in paradise! Praise Him for giving us faith and wisdom to know He is our Everything and He wants to and will give us the gift of Grace, Forgiveness and eternal life with Him! Praise Him for shining His light on us and carrying us through the good times and bad. Praise His Holy Name for asking us to lay our burdens at His feet. Praise Him for His massive Love He pours on us every second of every day.
Love you, cb