There is cancer in my mom’s body.
Though I am her daughter and will/would fight for her to make it go away, over the past 3 years I’ve been spending much time in prayer and observation, watching helpless at times, sharing tears, laughing when the very thing may seem disrespectful and out of place…but I’ve been learning a lot…like how complicated life is and how much I love my mom, along with my dad, sisters, and a whole lot of other family and friends.
She is a rock when it comes to her faith, trust, and love for God. She has a direct line, I’m sure of it, and I hope to hear Him that clearly as I press into Him.
Facebook has blocked me from “liking” the posts I put up about my mom, so I’m asking a favor of those of you who read here and are willing: will you please comment here so I can show my mom?
Anyway, here is the update:
Thank you for praying for my mom! Please keep the prayers going and however the Lord leads you, share your heart here so I can pass it onto my mom to lift her up.
Here’s the scoop: about 12 weeks ago she was finishing a round of chemo and was so wiped out, even though it was shrinking the tumors in her lungs. She received 2 units of blood at the end of this round. The doc wanted to give my mom a break from chemo so her body could recover before she started a new round. During the break she would be on a trial drug for which she qualified that was not a “killer of good cells” but would only inhibit bad cells from growing, IF IT WORKED. My mom was on the trial drug for 8 weeks and also changed her diet to include tons of veggies and fresh food and lean proteins, checking her alkalinity each day. She was pink again and said she felt great, except for the pain in her left shoulder where the radiation treatments froze her muscles. After the 8 weeks were up she had an appt with her oncologist that we all went to and the scans showed that during those 8 weeks the tumors doubled in size. *She has metastasized triple negative ductal carcinoma in her lungs.
Right after that appt she decided she had no other choice than to try one of about 5 other chemos the doctor told her about. This one, however, was a daily oral chemo that she was to take for 2 weeks, then rest one week, then 2 weeks and rest another week. (Her previous chemos have all been IV and administered once a week, with a bit of time to breathe on her days off….) She was so weak and tired on this chemo she did finish the first set of 2 weeks but got sick during that time and the cough hasn’t gone away, so she told her doctor that if she didn’t recover during the rest week she wasn’t going to do the second set until she was strong enough.
She went in for physical therapy yesterday morning for her shoulder, but before hand called her nurse and after hearing her on the phone the nurse instructed her to go thru the ER to get an Xray and scan. The doc was going to discharge her but when she got up to go to the bathroom she could hardly walk. They admitted her and read the scans. During the last 11 1/2 weeks the tumors have increased considerably, neither the trial drug nor the oral chemo working, and now she has pneumonia. They are treating her with IV antibiotics, giving her white blood cells a boost, and she is going to start a different chemo, likely.
She just called a bit ago and has no air movement in her left side. They want to scope her and see if there is a mucus plug they can remove or if it’s a tumor putting pressure on her bronchials. They just moved her to ICU and will start the procedure any minute. I’m spending the night there tonight and hope to spend some time with her in the morning. *Update at 7:26, it’s not a mucus plug or the pneumonia causing the difficulty breathing, it’s the tumor.
Here’s the deal…my parents are way too young to be this old! I’m not in denial. My father-in-law died at 49. Noah was 7 months. I get this. It’s just that I believe God has more life for my parents to carry out some plans He has for His Kingdom purposes. My mom is at peace either way, but she doesn’t feel like she is done yet, either!!! They have dreams and prayers they have prayed for 20+ years. I know all about chapter 11 in Hebrews…maybe I am in denial. I just am not done loving my parents and enjoying who they are, and not done introducing everyone I know to them. I’m so very grateful God chose them to be my parents and I think they are some pretty wonderful people….
All I know is the faith and trust my parents have in the Lord is challenging my own. My mom is a prayer warrior. Like I said, direct line, and some might say, “Well then why isn’t God just healing her?” Or, “If He is so good, why won’t He heal her?” In life there is a bigger picture of which we are not totally aware. I’m okay to say I just don’t know. He loved my son and he died. He loved His own Son…and we know that story. My mom takes it further and assures us all that He is good and her love for Him won’t change whatever the outcome.
I’m kind of numb and am just soaking in time with my folks. Any prayers of encouragement for them would be fantastic and most certainly welcomed.