Life and death are a razor’s edge. This knowledge does not make me an expert, but it is something familiar to me and this page will reflect posts on the subject. My prayer in sharing my journey through grief is anyone reading will be comforted and filled with hope.
Grief and loss are something we all experience here on Earth. I used to fear death, as well as try to avoid pain at all costs. Having walked through the loss of a child, as well as losing family members and friends, the fear of death no longer tangles me, but now I trust God’s undying love in the process. I don’t have it all figured out, but pain and suffering are two things I’ve embraced because in walking through them, I am learning to live life to the fullest. One. Day. At. A. Time.
I know I’ve been MIA…I can’t help it. I’m totally smitten and loving it, but dreading it at the same time…Love is complicated. I’m also exhausted getting only 2 and a half hour sleep cycles in each night, but I know that won’t last forever. Here are things I love: I love Ryan’s peach fuzz…it’s […]
So, I guess since I’m due in less than a week it’s probably time to have some more belly shots…my friend Gina took these of me on my front porch. The memory on my camera has been full and I’ve been a bit busy. I guess documenting this pregnancy has been a bit surreal for […]
After Noah died I could never imagine myself thinking or acting on anything that didn’t have eternal value or a world changing after effect. Engaging in the day to day was a difficult task, not only physically but emotionally and mentally. I had difficulty having trite conversations or giving a rip about petty pursuits…yet at […]
The “Fall of Man” was for sure, by far, hand’s down the crappiest day since the dawn of TIME. I know there have been terrible, horrific, life-altering days throughout the history of the world that have affected more people than just the first two people loved wholeheartedly by the Creator of the Universe, but as […]
Apparently…stress brings about contractions…or at least mega–Braxton Hicks. Apparently…even though I have been trained throughout my life in different leadership settings to appear calm in extremely stressful situations, my body wasn’t trained as well. Apparently…the European pregnant ladies know a little something because a half a glass of wine (don’t judge me…) during false labor […]
Today, somewhere in the world, it’s already May 2nd. My sweet friend, Carly Dudley, and her husband Sam, have touched the hearts of my family in a profound way…all the way from Down Under. For a couple of years now, Carly has been raising awareness of grief and baby loss all around the world! On […]
So, I did it. I went to my first solo counseling appointment. That’s it. I’m cured…no need for any further intervention. I’ve been declared “problem free”. Just kidding. So, back up a bit and you’ll remember that my going to the appointment was a result of a slight temper tantrum – breakdown I had after […]
…and the measures I’ll be taking, as a result. So, not trying to be too raw here, but this has never been a place where I “blow sunshine” for myself or anyone else. Let me shoot straight: being pregnant after losing a child isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. It’s a bi-polar roller coaster […]
My sweetest guy snoozing away in his car seat on the 4th of July in SD…if I had only known… Oh how I thought it would be a quick stay… I still had hope here… I get so pissed, angry, and motivated when I look at these pictures…the first two for obvious reasons, the third […]
I must confess…I met someone. Well, he found me, or at least found his way into my heart. We haven’t ever met and now we won’t until I die. His name is Kaden Vierra and he moved into his new permanent home in Heaven today at 10:58 a.m. Kaden was 2 1/2 years old. His […]